Right now i'm writing this with the knowledge that no one but me is reading this...a little more freeing as I'm not worried about getting it right. This year has confronted me like no other...no work in 3 years...my body has been revolting against me.....feeling better this year than in the past 5 ..but coming to the realization that it's still uphill ( or downhill ?) from here. GOT to find something to get me unfunked and bring in some $$ ..Spa work hasn't panned out....everytime they get to the physical requirements...waxing /standing etc....they smile and just about say "next" to my face....had barely out of school "managers" text while conducting my hiring interview...can you say rude ? ...
OK...enuf pity...must state and keep stating positive intentions...goals...everyday/night/all the time.
I come from a long line of pick-it-back-up-and-do-it again  people:  this is just a momentary setback.
There...I've said it out loud and put it in writing....Tomorrow's a brand new day....I'll be working again soon...